Hair plays such a vital role in our self-expression. I’ve had quite the journey with my hair over the years. Every stage of my journey, from accepting my true color to trying out daring modifications, has its own narrative. It’s been a journey of self-discovery as well as style discovery.
My hair went through many phases, from its original color to a bold blonde, jet black, and finally back to its original color of blonde. Every change was like starting anew, bringing with it uncertainty, anticipation, and a feeling of reinventing oneself.
I’ve come to see how much hair can influence one’s identity and self-confidence as I reflect on the various hues and looks I’ve attempted. It wasn’t just about appearances when I changed my hair; it was also about accepting change and discovering my true self at every stage of life.
Stage | Description |
Natural hair | I started with my natural hair color, a medium brown, which I had for years without changing much. |
First blond | I decided to go blond for the first time, lightening my hair and experiencing a dramatic change in my look. |
Going black | After some time, I went for a bold change and dyed my hair black, which felt refreshing and edgy. |
Back to blond | Eventually, I returned to blond, finding that lighter shades suited my style and personality better. |
- The beginning of my journey
- Getting to know blonde
- Unexpected farewell to blond
- Attempts to move away from lightening (unsuccessful)
- Blonde won"t let me go
- Current care
- Shampoos
- Air conditioners
- Masks
- Inexpressible funds
- Peeling
- Vitality of Lebel
- Combs
- Feng
- Toning
- Video on the topic
- Elvira t: from brunette to blond!
- The story of my hair. I wanted a blond!
- Girls ask for such a blond most often
- The story of my hair: how I spoiled it, restored, burned and painted
The beginning of my journey
In 2019, I began taking care of my hair. At the time, all I had on was cheap professional or mass-market leave-in cream, shampoo, conditioner, and one mask. The cut was torn, but my hair remained uncolored.
Then, after six months, I was able to even out the cut by tailoring my hair care regimen: I started using a hairdryer to dry my hair and added several masks (I seem to recall the masks were from Kaaral and Barex), leave-in products (Angel spray, Redken All soft cream and oil, Kaaral fluid, and much more), and the end result was this:
Getting to know blonde
And then it hit me in the winter of 2021, "I want to be a blonde!" and that’s when it all started. I looked for a long time for a hairstylist I could trust with my unwashed hair, and at that point, I followed the recommendation of a blonde friend and went to her hairdresser. I had never dyed my hair before, ever.
My mother suggested that since I was enjoying the new hue, I should stick with it and stop trying to lighten it, but I wanted to be lighter and I could see the end result without any problems. The next lightning struck precisely one month later, also causing the eyebrows to lighten.
When my dark eyebrows started to grow, I discovered that I preferred the look of blonde with dark roots and dark eyebrows together. The master advised using Correne highlighting to achieve this.
The most interesting part started here. While making corrections, I discovered that I had lost a few strands in an armchair. They had just been taken out in the sink after the lightning struck, which seemed to have damaged the joint from the earlier lightning strike, but I didn’t care because I had mistrusted the craftswoman. After a month, I came across an intriguing photo of me taken from the side. I liked him too much, and she started to think about getting a haircut because she didn’t think she would be able to part with her blonde hair.
Initially, my intention was to drastically alter the square shape, but I gave up when Sheggy’s haircut became too brittle.
My straight hair looked so brittle after a haircut without any style, that I already wanted to hide. I had to use curlers all the time to get waves. I was using Lebel, Olaplex, Milbon, Lanza, and Londa at the time.
Unexpected farewell to blond
A couple of months later, I decided to go for a color correction again, because the hairdresser did not touch the back of my head with lightening and this, of course, became noticeable. I didn"t know that that day would be fatal. They burned my hair and offered to dye it a different color and my choice fell on burgundy, the color was very relevant then. And why am I such a calm person? I didn"t cry, didn"t make a scandal, I was just in shock, because I had been striving for long hair for so long, and now I was forced to cut my hair and say goodbye to blonde. They didn"t take money from me that day.
In order to get rid of the bleached hair as much as possible, I decided to go dark and cut my hair even shorter after having to cut something around the mullet for three months.
The start of 2022. I became gloomy.
I felt so at ease with my new color and haircut, and I was frequently complimented on it.I always wanted to go back to being blonde, but I did nothing about it. I made the decision to color myself because the dark color was fading over time.I used Constant Delight 5 Magic oils to create my own color and "rolled" myself in black over time.
I had two lightenings spaced a month apart and two haircuts during the summer, which is when I got the idea to do hidden coloring.
Following my at-home experiments, I stopped coloring my hair, went three months without showing any color, and then made the decision to visit a salon to have my hair dyed a single shade that was one or two shades darker than my natural color. I presented the hairstylist with a picture of Megan Fox. And I got a bob a month later. The bob, in my opinion, looks great on me and adds brightness, but I also wish it were longer. Additionally, I can’t help but adore hair jars—you can’t really go crazy with a bob that short.
Attempts to move away from lightening (unsuccessful)
I stopped doing active hair care after six months because of the bob, and I even let my hair grow out. I then gradually started doing active care again. I didn’t often color my hair; instead, I waited until the color slightly faded. A problem arose when I attempted to extend the length.
After looking at my short bob photos, I made the decision to try it again, but this time I added a longer, curtain-like bang.
This post details my personal hair transformation journey, starting with my natural color, going to blonde, trying out black, and then going back to blonde. It’s a contemplation of the shifts, difficulties, and lessons discovered along the road, providing insights into how our hairstyle decisions can change over time and affect who we are.
Blonde won"t let me go
I was drawn back to the lighter side this summer, and I had a bob cut in part because I had dreams about lightening my hair and letting go of the dark ends. When I went to a salon in July to get my hair done, the stylist told me that the most I could hope for was a warm eight, but I was okay with that. We used powder to make it lighter.
I first attempted to treat the dark ends on my own by getting 6% oxide and a lightening oil from Concept. However, after doing this experiment, I accidentally removed a small portion of a strand with a comb, so I made the decision to get a haircut to get rid of the dark ends.
I made the decision to see a different hairdresser in August 2023, and she recommended growing out the roots and doing a reverse airtouch. I accepted her suggestion despite my concern that the coloring would soon wash out of my hair.
Viewing my hair from the back, you can see the broken and damaged strand from my lightning oil experiment.
So, exactly 4 months have passed since the return airtouch, this is what my hair looks like now. I am happy, although I thought that the coloring would quickly wash out and would look unpresentable.
The hair is at the point where it is starting to bend outward, so it is embarrassing to show how it looks from behind. Nevertheless, you must get through this trying time. Despite brittleness, it appears that I have kept the cut from tearing thus far. I’m holding on because it’s been exactly five months since my last haircut and I want to grow it out.
Current care
Shampoos
I wash my hair every day or every other day if I’m at home because I have an oily scalp. As the second one is more delicate, I use it more frequently for alternation: Matrix High amplify and Milkshake moisture plus. Before toning and before the Lebel Life Force procedure, I use Lanza Healing Blonde.
Air conditioners
Olaplex No. 4, Chi, Lanza Manuka Honey, and Olaplex are helpless when it comes to aloy.3. I switch around the air conditioners and occasionally take the masks off.
Masks
Some of the masks in my collection—Karal Royal Jelly, Loreal Professional Absolute Repair Gold Quinoa, Lebel Sof Fit+, and Londa Visible Pepair—are about to expire. I rotate masks based on instinct, usually using moisturizing ones.
Inexpressible funds
I frequently apply Moroccanoil cream on the second day after shampooing my hair, but I think it may have begun to dry out the ends. I simply switch up my regimen; Olaplex oil is still a mystery to me, and I adore Milbon oil. My hair turned out flawlessly with Lanza Blond Rescue cream, similar to Lebel Moist. I really like the Rich Repair series spray, but I recently tried evaluating Goldwell’s serum for the first time.
Peeling
I use Urban Nature at home once a week.
Vitality of Lebel
Combs
Janeke, Brashchi, Olivia Garden, Tangle Teezer.
Feng
Toning
I tint the sour toner from Matrix every 1.5 months. Once every 2 weeks I use an Estel New Tone tinting mask.
It’s evident from looking back on my hair journey that experimenting with different colors has been both thrilling and difficult. Every stage of my life, from accepting my natural hair color to trying out bright blond to deep black, taught me something new about my own style.
Even though the adjustments felt freeing, they also taught me important lessons about hair maintenance and how much my appearance affects my self-esteem. I discovered that going back to blonde felt like going full circle, but with a greater understanding of the procedure.
Ultimately, my hair journey is about more than just colors; it’s about embracing change, discovering new looks, and expressing oneself. Every step I’ve taken to figure out what makes me feel my best has been natural to bold and back again.